Dreaming Of Missing N

I awoke feeling sad, sad to the point of tears. The narrow bed was lonely and cold, the thin blankets not enough to keep me warm and there was not a cat to be found. I got out of bed and looked across the dry rocky back yard. I missed N fiercely, and there was nothing to be done for it. I sobbed a bit, then watched the few stars that could be seen through the haze. I wondered when I would finally make it through a night without thinking of N. My parent's back yard held no answers.
Then I awoke for real, in my (formerly our) bed, surrounded by cats who were all tucked in close trying to stay warm. I still missed N and was still sad, and I still wondered how long before I can sleep through a whole night without thinking of her.